Satisfaction

Today I was force to cut my beauty sleep short when my mum called me this morning. We were supposed to go out for brunch at 12 p.m but she called me at 10 a.m. She said her friend ask our family out for lunch so we had a plan-change. After I got ready, my mum told me that we were going to eat at Hard Rock Cafe. I was excited as I wanted to eat western cuisine last night but instead I ate korean. (by the way I hate korean cuisine)

When I was inside the facility, the interior was exactly like the name of the place. ROCK.
There were tons of posters and musical instrument on the walls of the establishment. Furthermore there is a stage there with a full set of drums and keyboards. It was awesome. However, when it was time to order I was at a lost. I dunno what to order as most of the items on the menu is beef and I can't take beef but I saw something interesting and ordered it. When it came, I knew I made the right choice.

I ordered the Twisted Mac, Chicken and Cheese. For those who have no idea what is it, it's actually macaroni and cheese with chicken fillets. The only difference is that their macaroni is shaped like curly fries you can get in A&W restaurants. The mac is nicely blend with the strong yet sweet, cheese sauce and chicken fillet that is grilled to perfection while I stole fries from my brother which was superb. I haven't had such an extravagant meal in a long time as my whole family is on diet thanks to Herbalife. I'm really, truly thankful for this meal. Two thumbs up !

It's a shame I dun have any photos to share with you all. Sorry ya!!

Gotta buck up !

Last night I witnessed the first event of the music society of my Uni. It was an event called "Spotlight".
It was a open jamming night where people gather and share their passion and skills in music.
I saw a lot bands performing but only a few were good. My personal favorite is the 3 person band that did a rock cover or Lady GaGa's "Poker Face". The arrangement was good and everyone in the band were playing in harmony. Besides that, I realised that there are a lot of good drummers in Uni which made me felt that my drumming skills could not stand anywhere near them.

Ever since I know I have to do Business in Uni, I felt that since I couldn't there's much of me to be able to do in music. So, I kinda left out my practice and didn't care much. After witnessing Spotlight, I got my music fire burning. It's time for me to keep fighting on in music.So, I gotta practice more whenever I got the time.  I can't let my skills go to waste.

Zoom Zoom !!

Tonight I went over to my friend's house to hang out. When I reached Sg. Long on my way back, there was a bright light coming from behind me. I glanced at my side mirror and it looked like a Ferrari. In my mind I was impressed that a owner of a Ferrari lives around me. However, when that car came up from my right side, I could make out that it wasn't a Ferrari but a Lamborghini Gallardo. I didn't recognized it at first because its mighty roar couldn't be heard from behind me. As soon as it reached my side, it began accelerating and that's when I heard its long awaited roar and it zoom far until I couldn't see it anymore. I could feel my car shake from the effects of the Lambo's accelerating. What a thrill man. I called my friend, Guo Hao immediately to tell him about this incident. Here's some photo of a Lamborghini Gallardo for those who have no idea what it is.

Back to normal ...

After few days of working the elder one of the 2 maids left because her husbands does not like to have her work at my house. Now, after almost 2 weeks of working, the remaining one finally "resigned" and now there's no maid left working for us.

My mum said, "Everything's back to normal now".
I asked,"Did we lose anything ?".

I couldn't care less when she say we lose nothing. So what she left ? It's not like she was a big impact on our life and she didn't did much of a good work anyway. However, it's good that things are back to normal. There will be no one touching my stuffs. Haha.

Once in a blue Moon

I found out that I was out of t-shirts when I came out of the showers this morning.
So I put on one of my button-up shirts that I've not worn in some time along with jeans.
I tucked my shirt in as I dislike shirts that exceeds my waist by a lot.
I didn't think much about what I'm wearing and I headed to Uni. When I fetched my classmate he commented on my wardrobe and asked why was I all dressed up. I told him about my dilemma this morning an cleared things up. The whole day I was at Uni everyone asked me the same question about what I was wearing. Can't a guy occasionally dresses differently ? Haha. You can't possibly think that I'm just a t-shirt and jeans guy ? You don't see me asking you guys about what you wear.
So once in a blue moon I might dressed up again.

New Addition

Last night when I came home from Uni, my sis told me that my mum hired 2 maids from Myanmar.
It was so sudden and now I live with them. I thought that the new maids would be lessen my mother's burden with housework. So, I thought it was ok.

However, when I reached home today, my mum told me that they cleaned my room. I went to my room and it was clean but they mess up my arrangement of stuffs especially in the toilet. Everything was misplaced. I got upset and told my mum. She said if I dun like it den I have to clean it on my own. I dun see anything wrong about complaining since she is paying them to work. Plus before they came I clean my own room anyway. So, it doesn't make any difference. Now I realized that everything would not be the same. What a fuss.

New Chapter

After almost 3 months of deserting my blog, I'm finally updating it. First of all, it's presented in a brand new template.
Just a plain makeover for the blog so that it won't be too boring.

For the past 3 months I've been enjoying a long relaxing summer break from Uni and now I'm back to Uni to begin Semester 1 of my foundation studies. The first day of the new sem is coincidentally similar to the first day of last sem: Boring.
It started with a 3 hour long IT module and then 1 hour queuing just to pay my fees. After that followed by a boring induction that revolves around topics covered when I first enter this Uni.

Ah~~~. Even after school I seem to be unable to find anything fun to do even with all my free time. Uni is totally boring.
Tomorrow is another day and I have to go school again. Let's hope it's not gonna be another boring day.

The only thing that's nice is to be reunited with my Uni friends.

Btw. my classmate now rents my previous house in Sg Long.

Legend

Today the King of Pop leave us. It was indeed a shock to the whole world.
He was crowned the King of Pop for a reason. When he was still breathing, he presented us with great hits and dance moves that greatly inspire musicians and dancers all around the world. Example of his famous hits are Thriller, Beat It, Smooth Criminal, Heal the World, Black or White, Mirror Man, and many more.
Another thing that was famous about him was his Moonwalk and 90 degree lean.
He was one of the singers whose name I knew when I was very young. His death was really surprising and it has saddenned alot of people in this world including me.
However, there are alot of people that dispises him because of recent child molesting trials against him. People fell that he is a sicko and is not worth to be worshipped after his death but I think that as a performer and singer, what's important is what has he achieved in the music industry. He has achieved alot with his talent and gave the community alot. As an aspiring musician I truly respect and worship him for his musical talent. People can say alot of things about him but in my heart he is forever more the King of Pop and no one can ever replace him. May he rest in peace.

Great Sightings

While I was on my way out for lunch today, I saw a team of sports car from Singapore and Johore. There were literally around 6 cars running the fast lane together in a row near the Tasik Selatan LRT station. I was so excited to see all those modified car. There were around 3 Mitsubishi Evolutions; red, green and orange, 1 grey Lexus IS250/Toyota Altezza, 1 grey Honda S2000 and 1 orange Nissan Skyline GTR R34. For a sports car enthusiast, it was a great sight. I especially enjoyed the sighting of the Honda S2000 as I have never seen one on the street before. On another sighting on the same day, I saw a grey Mazda RX-8. I guess everyone goes out on Father's Day.
I've been rushing a puzzle for my dad. I hope I'll make it before the day ends.

Malacca Gathering

Once again it's June and it's time for my high school reunion/gathering. Instead of a dinner for gathering, the organizing commitee suggested a road trip to Malacca on Saturday. That morning, my alarm didn't ring and I was late. So, I raced out the house to Swin Yee's house where we had to meet up at. When everyone reached, we departed. We drove there in 2 cars; Xue Ying's City and Swin Yee's Myvi. I sat Xue Ying's car with her bf and her. There's a long jam and accidents happened. A poor brand new C-Class was hit, with its bumper dented in the middle. I bet the fixing fee is gonna be HUGE. Because of the jam, we reached in the afternoon.

The first spot we went to was the Eye of Malaysia. After that, we went to Jonker Walk for lunch a.k.a. the first meal of the day. I didn't eat with the rest cause I can't take spicy food and they were eating assam laksa. We went sightseeing around Malacca's historical sites. We took alot of photos courtesy of Kenneth's BIG Camera.
But soon, the 3 of us felt like there's nothing more to do in Malacca. So, we decided to head home. The whole day was very hot but it was great being able to meet with some of them.

The photos are all here:- http://www.facebook.com/album.php?page=5&aid=98449&id=532741890#/album.php?page=4&aid=98449&id=532741890

Japanese

Last Thursday my friend from Japanese school invited me go out for a drink.
We went to Kim Gary's in Mid Valley. When I reached there I went completely frozen.
I can't speak any Japanese at that moment but soon speak normally later. I guess it's been a while since I speak to a Japanese. We all talked about what's happening in our lives. Suddenly, one of my friends ask me to spell something in Japanese Chinese writings. I totally went blank as I haven't wrote Japanese Chinese writing in ages. Then, we started asking each other to spell words. In conclusion, I gotta revise and it's really nice to be able to speak to a Japanese once in while.

Dinner and Pest

Tonight I had one of the worst dinner. I went to get some rice from the rice cooker and when I reach to grab the thing to scoop rice, a lizard jump out from the holder and into the rice. It was swimming and trying to get out of it. After that, it got out but hid behind some other appliances. I was in rage and went looking for a knife to end its life as I hate lizards and despise them. However, I calm down and drop the knife. My dinner wouldn't be complete without rice. So, I decided to cook myself a bowl of Maggi Mee.

When the water was boiled, I put the noodle in and that's when I realised that there were ants crawling inside the noodle. Although it was a new packet but ants were crawling all over the inside of the package. Damn. Another pest in my way.
The noodle was washed and recooked. Only after that, could I have my dinner.
This really sucks.

Damn Laptop

Recently with excess need of using my laptop for school work, I've realised that my 4years old laptop is seriously inefficient. It's slow, always lagging, and also full of viruses. Although this is due to my poor usage of laptop but I seriously think I am in need of a new laptop in order to survive in foundation. In order to get my hands on a new laptop, I need cash but where am I suppose to get it ?
With my current savings, I could only afford brands like Compaq, Acer or Dell but it's better than my current laptop. I hope my friend could help me find something that's cheap, nice and fast.

Cool Today

Yesterday I went to Times Square to join my friends after my basketball session. At first I was really tired but when I saw IT, I became really wide awake. I hurried down there to get closer to IT as soon as I finished applying for postpaid services.
When I got closed to IT, I can't help but feeling the urge to take photos and touch IT. IT was simply magnificient. I can't help but keep admiring ITs great body and paint. I really wish I could own IT. As much as I like to stare at IT for the whole day, I had to leave. I was forced to say goodbye to the beauty known as Nissan GT-R R35.

After that, I went to Jusco Cheras Selatan to watch Angels & Demons staring Tom Hanks. The reason why I didn't watch at Times Square was because the movie was all sold out. However, there wasn't any lines at Jusco Cheras Selatan. So I watched it there with my friends. The movie was awesome. Really exciting and dark but I prefer the Da Vinci Code more as the story and history facts is much more interesting. After the movie, I sent my friends home. On the way, I received a call from Kenneth.
I knew it had to be another mahjong session coming my way.

Around 9 something, the mahjong kakis arrived. I greeted them in my pyjamas. After a few hours of mahjong, I lose alot. I think it's because of the pyjamas and my friends will agree with this statement. Later, we went out at ate at a mamak stall.
The winner was going to spend us. So, I ordered some and went home after that. I slept straight away as soon as I reached home. Yesterday was really a hectic day for me. I was really wiped out but it was a fun day. I got no regret.

1st Celebration

Last Saturday night, I've helped celebrate my friend, Guo Hao a.k.a Wallace's birthday. It was the first celebration with my uni friends. I dunno what to talk much about this so I'll let the photos tell you everything.

Relaxation

Finally I'm free from presentation for a while. After having 2 days of presentation, I took a rest today. I went to the sports complex for a lil basketball, squash, badminton and swimming. I know it sounds tiring but it's the other way round.
It's actually really relaxing especially the swimming part. Surrounded by water, I felt the stress wash away. It was surprising when I saw my friend Jesslyn fetch Shu Ni, my junior from high school, to my uni. It has been a long time since I last saw her. Although it's really relaxing then, now I feel damn tired. Haha. So much irony.

Down with flu

Just after a week of Uni and I've already fallen ill. I caught the cold on Friday night. I was fine the whole day and I suddenly caught it. I spend my whole Saturday
staying in bed resting. I had teary eyes and running nose for the whole day. I ate a lot of different types of medicine. It was damn uncomfortable. This morning I woke up with a major headache but my flu was better. I went to the doctor on my mum's order. I have to eat 5 kinds of medicine which tasted horrible. I really hope that this medicine would relieve me of my pain fast.

1st day

Today was my first day of Foundation studies. I could describe it in 1 word. BORING.
However,I created a new record today. I was late for my first class. There were no parking and I had to walk far to get to my class. This is the first in MY LIFE being late for a first class. Man, that suck.

I met with Junn Honn to have lunch together. Later, I went to my next lecture which was Maths. Inside the room were 50 over students from BioScience, Computer Science and Business School students. All of them have that "I'm so eager to learn new things and meet new people" look on their face like small little kids. The lecture was a bore for me. I was sleepy and tired. My head was hurting and I can't wait to get out of there. Luckily, class end early. After that, I went to teach Japanese.

At night, I went back to campus with Junn Honn to play basketball. I fell in love with the court there. The board is plastic and it's on a hill. The view was nice, air was fresh and it's cooling at night. What a nice place to build a basketball court. Despite the boring lectures, I love my Uni because of the sports facilities.
Thank you, Nottingham. I gotta sleep now cause I have class early in the morning tomoro.

It's starting

Last Thursday and Friday were the Orientation and Induction for my class in the University of Nottingham starting on Monday. The first day was a drag cause I had to wake up early just to do some paperwork. They wrote that its from 9.30am to 4.30pm and I thought I was gonna be that long but what they meant was that registration is opened during these hours. I reached home at 10.30am and slept.

The second day was when all the speeches were given. Through out the whole thing I was sleepy and couldn't keep up. All I was thinking was, when is this all gonna be over. Then I walked around campus trying to familiarise with the surroundings with Junn Honn, who is also doing foundation there. What I really loved about my new school is the sports facilities there. There's basketball, tennis, squash, swimming pool, gym, football, futsal, volleyball and rugby fields/courts available. A total sport heaven.

Classes starts on Monday. I'm not nervous at all cause I'm just not excited to study again. I hope everything goes well for a lazy dude like me.

PC Fair

Today's the first day of PC Fair. My brother has been waiting for this day to come for a long time. His laptop was busted and he needed a new one. So today I drove my family to get it for him as my dad's not here.

We arrived around 11 something in the morning. I went to the fair while my family went to Sony Style. I wanted to check out what's there in the fair. I bumped into Tracy just when I arrived and walked around the fair together with her.
Then later I saw Che Wei and Sean, my ICT teacher in high school working there. Although they say lots of leng lui should be there but I didn't any. Maybe my taste is just different. Haha.

Well this is the highlight of my day. Btw, Happy Birthday to Ken Hong and Chang Yu.
Let's play more mahjong.

Those days

Every time I see those photos from that day, the memories just keep flooding in even if I don't wanna remember them. It feels like having an amnesia and I just realised what a bad person I am in the past. When I see those photos I can't help but wonder, was I happy back in those days ? Were you happy ?

No one will know. I shouldn't ask question like this. Gotta stay focus in the present for the future.

Awesome Party !!

Last night was our scheduled Mahjong Night again but this time it's different from all the previous mahjong nights. It's because we had a BBQ party this time.
All the others were told to bring the food while I supplied the grill.
It has been a long time since the last time I BBQ-ed with my pals.
Kenneth brought pork fillet, cucumber and green peppers while Chang Yu brought pork chops. The 3 of us started first because Xue Ying was running late. As usual.
We had so much fun grilling together. There were lots of jokes.

Later, Xue Ying arrived with cocktail sausages and marshmallow. So, we cook some more and just eat, eat and eat. I told all of them that it would be great if we all were studying together overseas. We will always have parties like this. After all the cooking and eating, we went straight to mahjong and the rest is all history.
In the end, all of us except Xue Ying and her bf realised that we don't have many friends cause we were missing another player and couldn't find anybody. So, rather than the usual 2 tables, this time we only have 1 table and we had to share. At least all's well ends well.

I'll see you guys again in 2 weeks. Yeah !!!!!

Photos

Recently I started using the picture slideshow screensaver for my laptop.
You know, the one where they show pictures in your My Picture folder.
I always turn on my laptop but just leave it there so the screensaver always come on.
It's surprising to find out how many photos that I've forgotten about.
Photos taken on trips or just photos with your friends. You get the idea.

I guess when they say a picture is worth a thousand words, they really meant it.
Words might be forgotten but when you see a picture the memories just come flying back. Over the years, alot have been forgotten. It's just great to revisit my memories once in a while and it's weird seeing how you look different before.
I laughed at myself.

How about you ?

In science, opposite attracts. Positive(+ve) and positive.
Negative(-ve) and negative. Whereas in maths, when you multiply a negative with a negative, it becomes positive. Both this theories not only applies to their respective subjects. It does well in the relationships between humans.

When you are looking for a friend in a new school, it's always advised to find someone who share the same interest as you do. There's the application of the Maths Theory. However in the field of love, it's always said that opposites attracts.
People from different worlds often fall in love and believe that their love would triumph against anything.

I wonder which theory normally takes place when a new relationship is formed.
Hmmm.... What about your relationship ? Which theory is it based on ?

I want it too !

March has come to an end. New semester in Universities in Japan are starting too.
Most of my classmates from Japanese School that are going to Japan to further their studies have already left. It's good to hear that they are fulfilling what they wanna do. I wish them all the best in their new chapter in life.

However at the same time, I can't help but feeling envious towards them.
Around this time last year, I too was one of them. I wanna further my studies to Japan but now I'm staying here. Well it sucks but what can I do ?

Well, good luck to all of you in Japan.
全ての事に気をつけてね！！
勉強に頑張れ！！

Nice and Quiet

Besides having boring chores to attend to, there's another thing that you have to do when you are staying alone and that's deciding what to eat for dinner everyday.
I've been running out of idea and cash.

Tonight I went to eat in a Japanese restaurant named Kikuya near my house.
My family has been going there for years and my mum likes to go there on Sundays.
So I figure why not. It is Sunday today.

When I was there, only 2 tables were filled with customers. Maybe it's a quiet night for business. I was very hungry. That's why I just gobble down my food when it's served on my table. I certainly enjoyed my meal. After eating, I just sit in the restaurant drinking tea alone as the other customers have already left. Although it's lonely but I find it very relaxing and calm. I guess sometime you just need a moment to enjoy your surrounding to get away from the hectic city life.

I smiled =)

One of the household chores that I have been assigned with is watering the plants and grass. I have to say that that is not fun at all. I gotta water twice a day.
It took around 20+ minutes everytime. It's such a drag.
When at night I would listen to my PSP while watering the plants. It's filled with sad songs. Today I slept till 7pm cause of basketball in the morning and I went to water the plants straight away. So I was very blur and has mixed emotions because of the songs and that this chore is totally boring. Suddenly I looked up to the dark sky. The area that I live in always has a lot of clouds. That's it's very hard to see stars at night. However, tonight I saw quite a number of stars. Suddenly my head cleared up and I smiled.

In the End

It has been a week and my family will be back tomorow night.
So what have I been doing for this past week ?
Nothing but staying at home and doing household chores left for me.
Another thing I did alot furing this week is playing basketball.
I've been to the basketball court for 4 days. The MSSD for basketball is starting next week and there's alot of people training. Although I've graduated a long time ago, it was a real treat for me as I get to pit against different kind of players.
Today I even get to play with students of 2007 of Suria. It's been a long time since I saw them let alone play with them. The downside about it is that I am aching everywhere. Maybe I should exercise more.

Impossible ?

Last Friday, I held another of my usual mahjong party.
This time food was not included and everyone have to eat before they come.
Chang Yu arrived earliest with Kiet Yeang and Kenneth.
Chang Yu brought along a whole salted herbal chicken from Ipoh in case he gets hungry. Everyone were too engrossed with the game and soon it was 1am.
The winner has to treat everyone in mamak. That's why we went out to eat and he left his chicken with me. So I had it for lunch the next day.
At first I was wondering whether can I finish one whole chicken just by myself.
After eating like a very hungry savage I did the impossible.
Eating a whole chicken by yourself isn't really a big task.
I owe this chance to explore my limits to Chang Yu.
Thanks for the chicken.

ps. I slept right after I finished that chicken. Haha.

Bored

Starting of today, I home alone in my big house for the whole entire week because my whole family's out for vacation in China. Wee....
If only I have plans for the whole week. I'm just gonna rot at home all alone like I usually do and I'm stuck with all sorts of chores left for me. That's my "prize" for staying home. Sure hope something fun will hit me on my head.
Someone please save me.

Is it Necessary ?

Most of the time when you do something, people will expect an explanation about it.
Is it really that important to have one ? Most of the time when you are asked to give one, you either have no idea what to say or have no chance to say your piece.

For me I think this applies well for arguments. When one party ask for an explanation from the other party, most of the time they weren't given the chance to explain. For example an argument between 2 love birds. The female will ask the male to explain but she will keep scolding and say her heart out without pause.
Thus, making the male unable to explain himself. After the whole argument, the female still expects an answer. If your the male, what would you do ?

I would just keep quiet and take in what she's scolding me for. I have my explanation but somehow my explanation doesn't make an impact. So therefore, there's no need for it. Of course, having to swallow the blame is never a pleasant thing but there's not much choice anyway. I guess since the other party already have a mindset on the outcome there's no point in explaining anymore. You can say it's tiring to keep up with this.

Worry Over

Today I went to my school to collect my JLPT results.
I passed. 286/400. Not very impressive but I passed.
That's what important. Haha.

Worry

Last night my classmate from Japanese School called to inform me that another classmate of ours got his Japanese Proficiency Test results. It was due on March but
March just began. Never thought that it would be this quick.

This afternoon my teacher called me to ask me whether can she see my results since it has arrive but they wouldn't tell me my result. I'm damn worry la.
Hope I pass.

Movies

Last night while I was eating with my family in Cheras Mahkota, I witnessed 2 movies on the same night. It was freaking awesome for me.

Movie 1 : A few tables beside me, there were few Indians having their dinner.
All of a sudden, we heard loud noises of plates falling to the ground.
At first, we thought it was an accident but the noises never stop.
The Indians were arguing and I saw one of them took a large bottle of beer
and knock his friend on the head and everyone was alarmed. Especially the
boss lady. Haha. The only interest I have is dinner. They were disrupting
dinner.

After the Indians left, we continue to eat. When all of the sudden I heard loud revving sound. Sounded like a race was going to happen. That's movie 2.

Movie 2 : The revving continues. I looked and a jam was starting as cars filled the
road. There were 2 car in particular that's trying to compete to see
who gets to go first. In time the one who started to revved went first
but since the jam is still there the car did not get far. The people from
the car that lost both jumped out of the car and pull a parang to strike
car that won.

It was really exciting. Who would expect a dinner with your family can be fully entertaining. On the same night, Xue Ying came to look for me. I told her about what happen during dinner and she couldn't believe me. I don't blame her. What happen was so rare. Haha. Do you believe me ?

Cheapest

Last month I went to my high school to interview for a position there.
I wanted to teach Japanese for their co-curriculum.
At first they say they wanted to check for response from the student.
On the same week, they asked me back. I thought it's been decided and I got the job.
However they wanted me to be their translator for their Japanese student exchange program. It wasn't easy helping them. They are always changing things the last minute and worst of all, they didn't pay me. Talk about cheap.

A week later after the program, they announced to the students that they have a new club for Japanese without imforming me first. Today I went all the way back to discuss the price with them. The new headmistress wasn't profesional at all.
I was standing in her room with 2 other teachers that have no reason to be there.
They keep saying that I'm demanding too much. They can't even pay RM50 for each student. what kind of private school is this ? One student's school fees is Rm9100 per year and you can't spare RM50 ? This school is so f*#king cheap.

Can't reach

Ever watch something that you really wanted slipping away from your hands ?
No matter how hard you grab it or try to get a hold of it, you still can't reach it ?
Even when you use every strength in your arm to grab it, you just can't.
It's just too far away. It just keep slipping from you until it's gone into darkness.
Then you just squat down on the floor and cry your heart out.
You can cry all you want but no one can hear you and that thing will never come back.
In life, you'll experience this over and over again.
If you're lucky, you'll get used to it.
I know I did. I got used to that sadness.
Whenever I get the feeling, I'd look at my hands.
I no longer look at the thing slipping away.
I begin to wonder why do my hands always let things slip away ?
I no longer cry when that thing is gone.
My eyes are dry like the deserts in the world.
I wonder what's worst ?
The feeling of sadness from losing something precious or not being able to cry eventhough I'm sad ?

Boring

It's just so boring these days. Tonight I was at my room alone watching tv.
Monday Night Laughs were on Star World. It was very family and I laughed alot.
However suddenly I just realise that even if the show is funny, I just don't feel like laughing. The mood just isn't there.

I went to my piano but all I played were love songs. It didn't exactly help cheer me up in anyway. While I was playing the piano I would sneak a peek out my window.
I was hoping to see the moon or some stars but they weren't there. While all these were happening my laptop has been online from 6pm.

Nobody is online or chatting with me. I'm just sitting in my big,empty room, laughing at a show all by myself. What a nice way to spend my night. Luckily, "Lollipop" was online and chatted with me. Things just became less gloomier in my room. This is just Monday night. There's still many more nights left.
How the hell am I going to get through all of them ? Someone help me.

Valentine's Valentine

My Valentine started this morning with me playing basketball like I always do on Saturdays. After that, my friend, Yik Wai suggested we go catch a movie at Leisure Mall since we've got no plans for the day. At first I was reluctant because today is Valentine's Day but I'm going out with a dude. How depressing.
We didnt watch a movie because it was full due to the overwhelming amount of couple there today. So instead, we went to a cyber cafe nearby. So that's how I spend my Valentine's Day. I told myself I will NEVER EVER EVER spend my future Valentine's Day in a CC with a dude.

After that whole CC incident, I went home to chill in my room. I saw "star" online. I was very happy to chat with her. Later in the evening, I went out for dinner. I drove all the way to the Mamak where I went to with "Star" before she left. I thought I could eat my loneliness away. I planned to eat while doing some night gazing but the moon was no where in sight and neither were the stars. So sadly, I ate my dinner all alone with no companion or what so ever. Even the moon and stars were not there. I just sat there and thought of "star". After dinner, I drove on the nearby expressway cause I still have some time left. As soon as I reached home, I played 王力宏's 星期六的深夜 since the lyrics is very suitable with my situation.

I never wanna spend my future Valentine's Day like this anymore.
At the end it's very ironic for a guy with the name Valentine having such a "great" Valentine's Day.

Reluctantly

Over the years, some of my friends have futhered their studies overseas.
Some in UK while one is in US and maybe some in other parts of the world.
That maybe so but I've never once send them off at the airport and tonight is not an exception.

Ever since primary school I hated the feeling of losing a friend. I will get real sad about their absences. So if I were to send them off in the airport, I wouldn't be able to bring myself to see them enter the gate and never to be seen again. It's just unbearable for me. So please forgive me for never being there for anyone of you.

Star, I hope all the best for you when you arrive at Australia. I'm sorry I'm not gonna see you off but it doesn't mean I dun care. There's just many things that can't be said. I hope you understand. I'll just have to remember you when I look at the dark sky or the ring. I'll never forget you. Thanks for everything.

When....

When I was waiting outside the restaurant with your family staring, I felt weird but excited on the inside. I'm glad to see you.
When we reached the mall, I'm glad to be able to do something with you before you leave.
When I saw you felling cold in the dark cinema room, I wanted to give you a hug to warm you up.
When we reached her house and you said I probably should go home, my heart sank.
When you were afraid of her dogs, I tried to protect you.
When you gave me my present, I smiled from my heart.
When I fetched you home, I drove real slowly so I could talk to you more.
When we reached your home, I wanted to park my car and stay there with you.
When you ask me not to speed on my way home, I happily obeyed.
When I was driving home, I was sad because you are leaving and there's many things that I haven't tell you.
When I reached home, all I could think of is to tell you I'm home and I didn't sped.
When I look at my ring, I think of you and know how much I'm going to miss you after you leave.
When I look at the dark sky for the moon I like, I'll look by its side to see whether are there stars as you like them.
When you read this, what will you feel ?

The Best Policy

Since we were young, our parents would always plant ideas that telling the truth is very important no matter where you are or who you are. We used to beleive those stories like "The boy who cried wolf" that telling lies is not good and might cause your front teeth to fall. Those were the teachings of our forefathers.

As we grew up, we understand that sometime a white lie wouldn't hurt anyone and might be helpful in our daily lifes. We began to act according to situations.
Some situations may forced us to lie in order to survive. Some people have even become accustom to lies that it became a part of our lives.

Not only do we hide the truth in a factful way, we hid our deepest feelings. How long has it been since you told your mum, I love you or have you told your partner in life that everyday with you is the best. Have you expressed anything to anyone that you have always wanted to ? I guessed not. Some time it's really not that hard to be honest with your own feelings.

Where am I going with this ? I just feel that people nowadays are all just not honest with themselves. Whether if it's a high school graduate whose lost in what's their next chapter or a girl having a crush on a boy or a man struggling in his job searching for an exit out of his misery. Some people just wait for their surroundings to decide for them while they keep their own decision in their minds.

I haven't been honest myself. I can't even show my care for a fellow friend who just got a new job. I wanted to congratulate her and ask about her job but instead I didn't ask a single thing. I felt useless. Why couldn't I just ask ? I really dunno why. Is it really so hard for us to be honest ?

New Direction

I let my to grow during the past month and it has grown to a certain length.
I didn't did it purposely. I just didn't have the time or mood to get it cut.
So I just lefted it. It's only when my friend, Xue Ying say I really look like an old dude and I really gotta cut it that I realised I should get it cut.

Finally I got it cut last Sunday. You can say it's my first time cutting this style.
For me it's new and when I look in the mirror the first time I sort of didn't recognised myself. When I reached home that night, after I washed my hair I felt
very refreshed. Maybe it's cause of its length. Shorter and less hair.

I might be thinking to much but it felt like a it meant something to me. The year 2008 has past. My year studying Japanese with my friends at IBT has past and it's time for a new chapter in my life. With this new hair, I felt my life has begun to restart for a new begining. Where to ? I'm not sure. Maybe a whole new world is waiting for me to explore. I hope I'm going in the right direction. Wish me luck.
I think I need a lot of those.

A way of Living

Recently I've been lazing around at home. After graduation I have months before I enter a college. Waking up everyday in the afternoon, staying home playing games and watching television and just wasting time, relaxing. I guess you can say a guy just need to rest and relax after a hard year of studying. However it all just sums down to me being lazy that's all.

Speaking of being lazy, I remembered one of the speeches that my former classmate, Kai Wei wrote. His title was "怠け者" which translates into lazy person. In his speech he wrote that laziness is in our genes. There's no way we can go against our nature and somehow this laziness helps our world become advance. I guess not all of us would agree to these statements. I know my friend, Poni won't agree at all.

To me being lazy is ok once in a while. After all, we all got things that we have to do. It's just that being lazy all the time has gotten to me. I'm at the point where I'm lazy even to get out of my own room. I've been neglecting house chores, my musical instrument practice and even updating my blog. Last night Poni said that my laziness is well known among my friends. I felt a little insulted but I am what she said. So, I just said ya. I felt I've lost my balance in life. I sleep too much and move less. I can't be lazy in everything. I gotta start finding my balance. I hope things would change around me but instead of waiting for things to change, I should change things myself, huh ?