Since we were young, our parents would always plant ideas that telling the truth is very important no matter where you are or who you are. We used to beleive those stories like "The boy who cried wolf" that telling lies is not good and might cause your front teeth to fall. Those were the teachings of our forefathers.
As we grew up, we understand that sometime a white lie wouldn't hurt anyone and might be helpful in our daily lifes. We began to act according to situations.
Some situations may forced us to lie in order to survive. Some people have even become accustom to lies that it became a part of our lives.
Not only do we hide the truth in a factful way, we hid our deepest feelings. How long has it been since you told your mum, I love you or have you told your partner in life that everyday with you is the best. Have you expressed anything to anyone that you have always wanted to ? I guessed not. Some time it's really not that hard to be honest with your own feelings.
Where am I going with this ? I just feel that people nowadays are all just not honest with themselves. Whether if it's a high school graduate whose lost in what's their next chapter or a girl having a crush on a boy or a man struggling in his job searching for an exit out of his misery. Some people just wait for their surroundings to decide for them while they keep their own decision in their minds.
I haven't been honest myself. I can't even show my care for a fellow friend who just got a new job. I wanted to congratulate her and ask about her job but instead I didn't ask a single thing. I felt useless. Why couldn't I just ask ? I really dunno why. Is it really so hard for us to be honest ?
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
New Direction
I let my to grow during the past month and it has grown to a certain length.
I didn't did it purposely. I just didn't have the time or mood to get it cut.
So I just lefted it. It's only when my friend, Xue Ying say I really look like an old dude and I really gotta cut it that I realised I should get it cut.
Finally I got it cut last Sunday. You can say it's my first time cutting this style.
For me it's new and when I look in the mirror the first time I sort of didn't recognised myself. When I reached home that night, after I washed my hair I felt
very refreshed. Maybe it's cause of its length. Shorter and less hair.
I might be thinking to much but it felt like a it meant something to me. The year 2008 has past. My year studying Japanese with my friends at IBT has past and it's time for a new chapter in my life. With this new hair, I felt my life has begun to restart for a new begining. Where to ? I'm not sure. Maybe a whole new world is waiting for me to explore. I hope I'm going in the right direction. Wish me luck.
I think I need a lot of those.
I didn't did it purposely. I just didn't have the time or mood to get it cut.
So I just lefted it. It's only when my friend, Xue Ying say I really look like an old dude and I really gotta cut it that I realised I should get it cut.
Finally I got it cut last Sunday. You can say it's my first time cutting this style.
For me it's new and when I look in the mirror the first time I sort of didn't recognised myself. When I reached home that night, after I washed my hair I felt
very refreshed. Maybe it's cause of its length. Shorter and less hair.
I might be thinking to much but it felt like a it meant something to me. The year 2008 has past. My year studying Japanese with my friends at IBT has past and it's time for a new chapter in my life. With this new hair, I felt my life has begun to restart for a new begining. Where to ? I'm not sure. Maybe a whole new world is waiting for me to explore. I hope I'm going in the right direction. Wish me luck.
I think I need a lot of those.
Monday, January 12, 2009
A way of Living
Recently I've been lazing around at home. After graduation I have months before I enter a college. Waking up everyday in the afternoon, staying home playing games and watching television and just wasting time, relaxing. I guess you can say a guy just need to rest and relax after a hard year of studying. However it all just sums down to me being lazy that's all.
Speaking of being lazy, I remembered one of the speeches that my former classmate, Kai Wei wrote. His title was "怠け者" which translates into lazy person. In his speech he wrote that laziness is in our genes. There's no way we can go against our nature and somehow this laziness helps our world become advance. I guess not all of us would agree to these statements. I know my friend, Poni won't agree at all.
To me being lazy is ok once in a while. After all, we all got things that we have to do. It's just that being lazy all the time has gotten to me. I'm at the point where I'm lazy even to get out of my own room. I've been neglecting house chores, my musical instrument practice and even updating my blog. Last night Poni said that my laziness is well known among my friends. I felt a little insulted but I am what she said. So, I just said ya. I felt I've lost my balance in life. I sleep too much and move less. I can't be lazy in everything. I gotta start finding my balance. I hope things would change around me but instead of waiting for things to change, I should change things myself, huh ?
Speaking of being lazy, I remembered one of the speeches that my former classmate, Kai Wei wrote. His title was "怠け者" which translates into lazy person. In his speech he wrote that laziness is in our genes. There's no way we can go against our nature and somehow this laziness helps our world become advance. I guess not all of us would agree to these statements. I know my friend, Poni won't agree at all.
To me being lazy is ok once in a while. After all, we all got things that we have to do. It's just that being lazy all the time has gotten to me. I'm at the point where I'm lazy even to get out of my own room. I've been neglecting house chores, my musical instrument practice and even updating my blog. Last night Poni said that my laziness is well known among my friends. I felt a little insulted but I am what she said. So, I just said ya. I felt I've lost my balance in life. I sleep too much and move less. I can't be lazy in everything. I gotta start finding my balance. I hope things would change around me but instead of waiting for things to change, I should change things myself, huh ?
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