Tears

My mum used to tell me about the origins of my chinese name.
My chinese name is 文. It came from a chinese god's name, 文章.
My grandma thought of it cause she wanted her grandchilds to be smart and successful.
Like all chinese do, when they named a child they will get a fortune teller's opinion. At first the fortune teller wanted to add 3 drop of waters to it turning it to 汶 but because I have many moles near my eyes indicating I like to cry that's why my name remains 文. Like the teller said, I did like to cry.

Through all my years growing up, my tears have all dried up. Like frozen glands.
Over the years many people have called me cold blooded because of my lack of warm feelings. Even when I watch sad movies or dramas I wouldn't cry. I even laughed sometime. However I have to admit my eyes always get teary. I just didn't wanna cry.

That day while I was watching 家好月圆 something happen. This drama is rumour to be full of drama, full of sadness. I watched for over 30 episodes and every time I just watched it as a normal movie but I finally cried while watching an episode.
While watching that episode my tears kept rolling down without control.
It was a love relationship problem. That's why I cried. Plus with the theme song it increased my sadness. I really hate that stupid feeling. That feeling of not being able to do anything.